Last Wednesday Savannah started Kindergarten. I cannot accurately describe how excited she was to finally start! I on the other hand was actually dreading it. I kept thinking the worst what-if’s, dreaded the sickness she would be bringing home with her (already experiencing that one…), the peer pressures and influences, what if she didn’t get a good teacher…what if…what if…
Then I realized that I can’t put her in a bubble, I can’t be with her all day. But God can. I pray all the time that God is with her throughout the day, helping protect her heart and spirit. I pray for her teacher, for her strength throughout the day (I cannot imagine how worn out they can get with 18 kids a class, I’m tired with just 2!) and that she is the perfect match for the students in her class to help them best learn. Trusting Savannah into God’s hands has really given me peace.
The first day was still hard. Its so bittersweet to watch this 5.5 year old who should still be a baby go off happily into this big school. A few tears were shed. By me, not by her. She sat right down and barely told us goodbye! Jaxson still has a hard time leaving her though when we drop off and calls, “Sissy? SISSY!” when we leave. Its pitiful but absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?
And you know what? A week into this Kindergarten thing, we are falling into a nice routine and both of us are really enjoying it. She absolutely loves her teacher (as do I), she’s making friends, and she’s learning (her proudest moment so far is that her teacher taught her how to open a snack bag! Lifeskills are important, too, right?). And honestly, it has helped our relationship as I thought it would. Its nice that we both get a break from each other, she spends her days doing lots of fun things and I can give Jaxson some one-on-one time he isn’t used to getting. She comes home happy to see us and Jax and I are always excited to pick her up!
I know public school isn’t perfect and we will have our challenges ahead, but so far I’m happy with where God has placed us!
P.S I’m 21 weeks now. I need to update desperate this belly growth! Here’s a sneak peak of my view and shrinking lap at 19 weeks: