Car rides often lead to revelations for me. Something about the quiet moments, the inspirational music, the mind numbing action of driving ,all work together to be a place where God can speak to me, to calm me.  Today on the way to school, it was one of those moments.

Today encouragement came through the song, “Mighty to Save” by Hillsong. We’ve sang this song many, many times at church and I’ve sung it many times in my own quiet time and I’ve always loved it. But today, it brought a whole new meaning to me as I face the uncertainty of these next few weeks.

“Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.”

Singing that chorus brought a whole new trust in my God. That he can move mountains, and he conquered the grave, of course He has control of this situation as well. Of course he will save me and these babies in His time and in His way. 

“I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.”

And that’s what it was for me, a moment of surrender. I haven’t surrendered in a long, long time. I’ve been so distant from God in my busy life these past few months but in this moment I did surrender to God’s plan, to His love.  It’s sad that it takes a rough experience in life for me to reach out again, but still I feel welcomed with open arms.

“Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We’re singing for the glory of the risen King”

And lastly, I was encouraged to praise Him no matter what happens with these babies.  I felt the peace and encouragement I feel when I talk about Kaylee, that though my pain during her adoption was  hard to bare at times, our story has brought so many people encouragement and an example of who God is.  I have no fear that however this new story unfolds, God will be the author and shine through as well.

Lord, now I surrender…