I just don’t feel like writing much right now.  I’m feeling a mix of things that I don’t really know why or what to do with it, so forgive me if I’m quiet while I figure it out. Or maybe I’ll just wake up tomorrow and be inspired again.

My birthday weekend turned out “eh.”  I did enjoy good company and soaked up the beautiful God made scenery, but it just left me feeling “eh” and ready to come home.  It wasn’t what I expected my fun, big 2-1 birthday celebration to be like. And I have still yet to drink my first official drink, which is fine by me. Oh well, that’s what some times having expectations does in life–lets you down.

I’m looking forward to my next visit up to the mountains in a few weeks in which I have little expectations but to hide away deep in the woods in our cabin with the great family of mine. Maybe I’ll read a book. Or go outside and write among the singing birds, sunshine, and trees. Or take a hike with my Mom. I just need space to breathe. I feel like I’m starting to suffocate in life among school demands and our messy clothes everywhere and trying to figure out how in the world to discipline our kid who just laughs at us (a whole ‘nother post for later).

And another thing that’s weighing me down–more expectations I had of myself. Remember last year year? Straight A’s for 9 classes in a row?  I felt like super Mom. Well now I am headed in the direction of B’s and C’s and I feel like I’ve failed. Why am I so hard on myself? I need to remember it’s not about the grade, but about the simple fact that I’m still in school and getting it done. I don’t have to be perfect, right?  Some one needs to keep reminding me of this.

That’s enough depressed thoughts for today.  On a happier note, tonight is the last night to enter the Unique Skins Giveaway over on the Review Blog so if you haven’t already entered, it’s your last chance!  3 winners will be announced tomorrow :-)